The meaningfulness of time; Narratives of cancer among chronically ill older adults

• Aging and time are implicitly indicated in the experience of chronic illness.
• Cancer carries a meaning load that differentiates it from other chronic illnesses.
• Restructuring of the biographical account is a central event of the cancer experience.
• Projections of a continuous self into the future are disrupted by cancer.
• Decisions regarding cancer treatment are linked to interpretations of the future.

This study, using ethnographically-based interviews, sought to describe how chronically ill older adults experience a new cancer diagnosis and the effects of this on their interpretations of personal health, aging, and the future. Three semi-structured interviews were conducted with each of the fifteen informants. We asked questions that explored each individual's life history, chronic illness occurrence, and direct experiences with cancer. Interviews were structured to provide social and historical contexts to enhance our understanding of the informants' illness narratives. Interview transcripts were analyzed thematically to describe how individuals described the cancer experience, its meaning, and its consequences. One of the major findings of our study was the role of cancer in disrupting individual biography, an interruption that fragmented time into three distinct segments: the Recalled Past, the Existent Present, and the Imagined Future. We highlight three main themes around the experience of illness-related time: (1) disruption found in individual biographical accounts as a result of fragmented time dimensions; (2) altered projections of a continuous sense of self into the future; and (3) modified treatment decisions resulting from a perceived altered life course and the finitude of advancing age. We further introduce the concept of Anomalous Time as a permutation of time central to individual experiences of cancer. Implications for how older adults understood their cancer and individual reactions relevant to seeking care are discussed.